lianamoore

I've been contemplating a lot of things lately and I think I have finally found myself. Let me explain.  When I was younger I sacrificed myself, my friends, even my personality to live up to what I thought people wanted me to be. Especially when I became romantically involved, I was always looked at as "So So's Girlfriend" and I tried to mold myself into what I thought was expected of me and that title.  My "friends" didn't know who I really was because I was never Barbara, I was always the girlfriend. You know its funny. These people, the people I gave up myself for were not even friends... I thought they were at the time because I was so na

hmmm, a lot on my mind... cant quite put into words.  keep watching, this show is about to get interesting.

6 months has passed since I wrote a journal on here... I cant believe it has been so long... So much has happened that has made this 6 months whirl by me like I was on a run away train with no brakes.  June 10th my father was killed in a car accident.  As I type this now the words elude me as to what I should say.  I cant put into words how that single moment has forever changed my life.  Because of this my family and I moved back to my home town.  My mother and sister needed me here.  We just had Thanksgiving together and it just didn't feel right.  My dad had a way of cracking inappropriate jokes on family members to make the holiday a litt